Ambien Craving

I am so scared right now.

Reading these stories…I can so relate. It is very sad, what Ambien has done to me. And yet I love it, love it, love it.

I should know better. I am in the medical field, and very specifically due to my field, believe me, I should know better…

I’ve been on Ambien for years. Started as a way to help me care for my parents as they were dying. Lots of tragic scenes that even Shakespeare never imagined.

But since then, I continue to crave it. And last night for the first time I apparently took most of a whole bottle over the evening, with alcohol, of course…God, how am I still here? How can I manage to work, even half a day as I did today?

It’s amazing I’m still alive. But I don’t feel alive. I thoroughly agree with those who’ve said that there need not have been mental problems for this drug to have taken control of their loved ones. I was a happy person, despite some traumas, but since discovering Ambien I have been “in love”, have spurned any human contact, have become a workaholic, and between prescriptions–which seem to run out earlier and earlier now–I don’t see the point in living.

Yet I have people I do love. And I have failed them all–due, I am sorry to say, to Ambien. It is my only true love. It blocks out all that is wrong, and makes everything disappear.

Due to my profession I dare not say these things. Thank you for this forum.

Tess