Ambien and Alcohol: Side Effects

I am an addict and alcoholic. I am over 35 yrs old. It sounds like a lot of you are pretty young, younger than I. If I could tell you this and you could REALLY understand and take it to heart…you might have a chance. Any drug taken to get a ‘high’ is deadly. Ambien is especially dangerous. I have been abusing it on and off since it first came out. I’m sure you know by now, Ambien numbs the part of your brain and you lose all…I mean ALL inhibitions. It doesn’t sound like most of you are taking the doses I have taken, than God! When I do get it, I usually get 30 – 10 mg pills and I take them throughout the period of one day, the next day I get one of the two refills and take another 30 that day, and then the last 30 over the 3rd day. I have no idea how I have survived, other than a very high tolerance. I have done some crazy things while on ambien that has brought me to my knees and to tears. I’ve gone to jail for driving while on Ambien. I don’t think I even understood what was going on nor did i care until it wore off in jail. I have almost hit my mother while she tried to keep me from doing some pretty crazy things. One time I was trying to let an elephant in my bathroom window and had the window wide open in the cold of winter. She came in the living room late at night b/cuz the tv was LOUD as HELL and I told her I couldn’t b/cuz of ‘them’, the people in the room with me said they couldn’t hear the tv…there was noone there. I had another episode last night. I have a family and it scares me to think of what might happen one of these times. Last night, took all 30 and ended up going to a restaurant and going table to table and telling my life story to people! Yea, IDIOT or addict. Sad, pathetic. Then, left with a guy’s wife who was much younger than I and we went looking for more drugs. We went to a bar and I KNOW I was asking LOUDLY if anyone had something. We were asked to leave. We left with 3 young guys in my car, me driving. Stupid. I am blessed I did not get pulled over or killed someone or died from overdose. I guess we were on our way to have sex with guys we didn’t know! I remember catching my senses and ended up going home to my ‘family’. I’m afraid to give too much away. Paranoid, I suppose. If you have depression, ambien will make that worse. If you mix it with the wrong meds, you can die. Funny thing, one day I might only take 6 and for some reason my heart will stop. YOURS MIGHT TOO! Go to a meeting you younger people. You have a chance to live a GOOD and PEACEFUL and HAPPY life. Don’t fall into this trap of addiction that I have. It ruins any happiness or hope for a good life. I prayed tonight for God to help me not pick up my refill. I pray you STOP taking this drug, it kills, it makes you do things like I’ve told you. And, thats not even the worst. My Mom and I were on a road trip and I was in the back seat eating my cigs!!!! Then, I was trying to jump out of the car and she had to pull over and talk me into laying down..lasting maybe a minute. Asking people at gas stations for drugs in FRONT of my poor Mother. She’s been thru this so much with me, I feel so bad for her. Anyway, this is the first time I’ve let all this out, about the ambien. I have been apart of AA on and off for almost 20 years now. It’s not so cute when you’re out of control at my age. PLEASE, I ask you from the bottom of my heart to stop this ambien or any substance abuse. It only gets worse and I mean more WORSE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
Peace and love to all.

–Lee